The rant.

10 Dec

Nothing blows more than fertility treatments. I was having a pretty tough two days with my emotions, better yet with anger control. I lost my temper on anyone and everyone. I should have been walking around with a sign saying “do not converse, angry woman doing fertility treatments”. I was a hazard to everyone around me. I’ve been feeling ok emotionally about doing the treatment because I have high hopes that this month will be good, not sure if that’s the best thing but I just can’t think about it not working because then I go into really deep depression. I’ve been pretty okay today till I went to get my third shot, and low and behold the nurse had no idea what she’s doing. Unlike the states where they take fertility treatments very seriously, here in Kuwait they don’t. No follow up, no blood work, just take the medicine and come back after ur done. I love my doctor she’s wonderful, dot get me wrong, but many times I wish I had more. It’s already nerve wrecking going through treatments, and then not havin anything to reassure you is hard. Anyways, back to the nurse. She put the liquid with the bottle of medicine for it to mix, an she SHOOK it, I was just horrified. I remember reading that you shouldn’t shake the bottle, and the stupid bitch shook it, does she not understand that I can’t have anyone mess with my treatment!!! That a month lost is like a century to me with the mourning of a baby we coudlve had. I was so mad. Now I stopped by my doctors office to tell her what happened and to see if my stomach pain was ok. I’ve had stomach pain an diarrhea since I woke up this morning, and I’m not sure if its a side effect. I’ve been really worried about overstimulation esp since they don’t really follow up here with treatment. Now I’m in the waiting room, with more pregnant women, and I feel depressed again. Hallelujah. Fuck my life. Ok I’m done with my angry rant now.

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