20 Dec

So here it is, just as I expected the last few days. I didn’t even ovulate. I had a breakdown yesterday, not such a bad one, but really mostly wailing and crying all day uncontrollably. I woke up today and started crying right in bed as well because just like most bad days, we go to sleep and when we wake up we wish it was just a dream…and when we find out that it’s not…the whole world starts crumbling down on you again. I’m struggling. The only silver lining is that I will be traveling in 4 days to go see my family in the states as well as get a second opinion on my treatment. The worst part of all of this I how I found out that I didn’t ovulate. I was at the hospital getting a cleaning for my teeth done when I decided to stop by my doctors office to see if they had gotten my results. After half an hour of waiting I found out that they did and went to pick up the results at the lab. My progesterone number was so low, that I literally sunk deep down into my black hole. I couldn’t believe it. A 1.64. I just wanted to get a confirmation today from her, and I did. So here it is. My PCOS story.

10 Responses to “Results.”

  1. satoyafoster December 21, 2012 at 6:52 am #

    (HUG) I’m so sorry. I know this PCOS journey is a struggle at times. Try to do something for yourself that you enjoy. It’s very disheartening to TTC but things don’t seem to be functioning properly. (HUG) All my love to you! xo

    • bloggerkuwait December 21, 2012 at 9:42 am #

      thank you so much for your sweet words. it’s just so difficult to deal with..but I guess that’s our test in life.

  2. iSpytheWorld29 December 22, 2012 at 1:07 am #

    It’s frustrating when ovulation doesn’t occur, especially when our hearts are yearning for it to happen so we can do the baby dance and create the little baby we’ve been wishing for. So I empathize with you. Like Satoya said, do something special for yourself. Enjoy the holiday time. Many blessings to you during this holiday season!

    • bloggerkuwait December 23, 2012 at 11:14 am #

      my doing something for myself is heading back home to see family and friends. I hope you all have a great holiday my TTC friends! lots of love ringing in the new year!

      • iSpytheWorld29 December 25, 2012 at 8:57 am #

        I’m glad your spending time with family and friends. It’s wonderful to be in the comfort of those that you love and love you.

      • bloggerkuwait December 25, 2012 at 4:52 pm #

        So much you have no idea! It’s really the best therapy possible 🙂

  3. delilahdoolittle January 4, 2013 at 11:24 am #

    I’m very new to your blog, have had a very quick look through it but it still breaks my heart. I found out about my PCOS only two years ago, I found the one fortunate thing was for some reason I knew from a young age I would never be able to have my own children and hopefully that will make things more easier for me. But there is still nothing more gut wrenching than being told. My heart goes out to you and your partner.

    • bloggerkuwait January 4, 2013 at 5:11 pm #

      I agree. Usually PCOS is not an infertility forever sentence, if you don’t mind me asking why yours is. It’s so nice to have support from those around you! I hope one day a little miracle will happen for you, no matter how much doctors say it won’t.

      • delilahdoolittle January 5, 2013 at 7:32 am #

        I know how ridiculous this sounds but I have never actually been told mine is a forever sentence. I’m rather basing it on a deep inner feeling. If you have time I have an article called “Trust your gut” that might explain it a bit better 😉

      • bloggerkuwait January 7, 2013 at 4:59 am #

        I definitely will go read more 🙂 it’s nice having support of other people’s stories and struggles around you. Thanks for sharing 🙂

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