26 Jan

My husband and I decided to take a last minute trip to Dubai since he had a three day weekend off. It was such a great change and relief from our TTC journey. I have reached a conclusion. I am really depressed in Kuwait, not because it’s not a beautiful country or because it has a lot of cool place to go and things to do, but simply because this is where my nightmare began and is still on going. I’ve realized that when I go anywhere else in the world I feel a million times better. Kuwait/home=infertility. Anywhere else=life is moving on. I even forget what were going through which is amazing because its all I ever think about. Around the time I got diagnosed I had this idea to start an evening dress line that is more conservative yet chic and elegant for those women who can’t wear sleeveless and really open dresses. I had the idea, the passion, the sketches and all the ideas put together, then two things happened. Our TTC journey took a harsh twist downward as well as I had a hard time finding a manufacturer. Right now, it hurts me everyday when I think about my dress line. I know I should consider going back to it, but I knew that I would néed to go see the manufacturer in turkey or china and I can’t right now with needing to be closely monitored. What an unfortunate failure that I’m not sure ill ever get to. Anyways, positive thoughts positive thoughts. I’m waiting for AF to come any minute now, and I’m very anxious about starting the shots. Hubs said hell try his best to learn from the nurse how to do it and be there with me, he is really freaked out of needles, so for him that’s a huge thing. And for me it’s a huge thing that he’s still gonna try to be there for me and get over his fears just like I am. I pray. I pray it’s our last month. I pray that this isn’t as torturous as my last month with just four shots.
On another note…Dubai is amazing! And if you ever get the chance you should def def go!!

2 Responses to “Dubai”

  1. Fertility Doll January 26, 2013 at 10:33 am #

    Beautiful picture. Don’t see your clothing line dream as a failure, you’ll create it when the time is right and when you’re ready. It’s really hard to balance infertility with career, in a way infertility puts everything on hold and becomes your focus. I wish you so much luck with the shots and the next part of your journey.

    • bloggerkuwait January 26, 2013 at 2:12 pm #

      Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. I hope one day I can. It’s true, and I thought it was just me; that I feel like I can’t do anything right now but this. It’s just too much with anything else going on, even though I wonder if its better to be working or something to get your mind off of it. I’m still trying to find out where you are in your journey, Goodluck to you as well xo

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