25 Mar

Today I had my HSG…and let me tell you it was just as painful and horrifying as my endometrial biopsy. I don’t understand why it’s so different pain wise for many people…but I fell into this is horrible group. Initially the saline didn’t hurt at all…it’s only when she put in the iodine that my body started cramping so bad I could barely breathe. The problem is, even though my tubes were clear….initially the right tube wouldn’t let any liquid in, so she had to squeeze more iodine in me to get it to go into the right side. A big fml. I kind of wished that i would have some kind of blockage because then the insurance would automatically cover IVF nomatter how long I’ve been trying, but its also a good thing to not have a blocked tube. I am still waiting to hear back on the decision being made by the insurance company. In the meantime my sister in law asked me what are you going to do if they deny you? And I couldn’t find an answer for her. I can’t continue doing injectables because it will be absolutely pointless when everytime my cycle will get canceled. I also can’t keep spending money on something that will keep failing. Aside from all that, going from 0-120 on fertility shots is not the best option esp that it gives me anxiety and the craziness starts kicking in. What’s my other option? Birth control, and put aside baby making until we have a better plan- aka a few years from now? I am so very sad. I know everyone has their own daemons to deal with when it comes to PCOS- I just honestly don’t know what to do with myself now. I’m learning to keep putting faith in god and know that when its the right time for us to have a baby, we will. I’m telling myself that if IVF doesn’t go trough now, that God doesn’t intend to have us have a baby now. Maybe later. But I can tell you I still feel sad, because I don’t even want to have an ounce of hope and then get crushed so badly when I get the no, which it most likely will be.

16 Responses to “HSG”

  1. Kristin March 26, 2013 at 9:36 am #

    I’m sorry it was so painful. I didn’t have any blockages so they didn’t have to push more iodine in. For me the only painful part was the small balloon they use to open up the cervix. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

    I haven’t been on fertility meds in a few months, but I’m trying to put myself in the same headspace you are in now. (we’re going to pick up again in May) I remember how hopeless it all seemed. And that’s why we decided to take a break.

    I’m sending you good vibes. I hope the insurance company comes to their senses and approves the IVF. We haven’t gotten to that stage, but we know it’s going to be difficult for us to if we have to go that far.

    And I know when I had my HSG, the doc said that the iodine flushed my system, moving any small blockages (which it sounds like you had) out of the way. And that lots of women’s chances of conception went up in the six months after an HSG thanks to the flush of the Fallopian tubes and uterus. So take heart. I’m thinking of you. Much baby dust your way.

    • bloggerkuwait March 27, 2013 at 5:59 pm #

      Yes, I think I might of had a small blockage. Thank you so much for your well wishes, it really means so much! I’m glad yours didn’t hurt at all! Lucky duck ๐Ÿ™‚ it’s very hard to get your head around waiting a little bit…but I guess sometimes we need it, right?

      • Kristin March 27, 2013 at 6:03 pm #

        Taking our break has helped me immensely mentally, emotionally. But I’m still ready to be a parent. The waiting to be a mother is still hard no matter what. Thinking of you!

      • bloggerkuwait March 27, 2013 at 6:05 pm #

        Thank you! It’s so true. Praying for you as well sweetheart!

      • Kristin March 28, 2013 at 9:42 am #


  2. hopingonhope March 26, 2013 at 11:04 am #

    Am so sorry it was this painful for you. Perhaps it was the extra iodine. Anyway, hope you are feeling better now.

    • bloggerkuwait March 27, 2013 at 6:00 pm #

      I think it was too, thank you I am feeling much better!

  3. lamentingthelentil March 26, 2013 at 1:36 pm #

    My hsg was not at all pleasant either. I’m sorry. And the insurance situation sounds scary. I’ve known all along that our insurance won’t cover a penny of anything related to fertility treatments at all, which is terrible, but at least I’m not still wondering about it, ya know?

    • bloggerkuwait March 27, 2013 at 6:00 pm #

      Yeah of course, honestly…the wait is so unbelievably painful, because its the unknown. If I at least knew what was going to happen I would be content with it. It would be much better!

  4. Lauren March 26, 2013 at 2:25 pm #

    Oh, Honey! I’m so sorry! I don’t know why somethings are so much more painful for some. For the past 1.5 days, I have been in extreme pain after egg retrieval…a process that some women go to work afterwards! Yikes! Right now, I am just praying for a miracle touch on my body and that it doesn’t progress to severe OHSS.

    I so desperately want to hear good news from you soon! I pray that insurance grants a miraculous request. Hugs!

    • bloggerkuwait March 27, 2013 at 6:01 pm #

      Oh no sweetheart! I hope you’re feeling better! I’ve been praying for you that you don’t get OHSS! Praying for you everyday. How are the embryos looking? And are you feeling better?

      • Lauren March 28, 2013 at 3:08 pm #

        My nauseousness (from the medications) has continued to grow and I spent quite a bit of time on the bathroom floor yesterday. Also, my weight gain is increasing (slowly), which I’m a bit concerned about. I now have a total of about 4 pounds gained since last week. That is not yet in the “worrisome” category to doctors, but I’m going to be very aggravated if this doesn’t work ๐Ÿ™‚ I’m about to update my blog, but the good news is that I’m scheduled for embryo transfer tomorrow! All 20 embryos were still dividing on Day 3 (some faster/stronger than others), so the nurse told me that I’ll have some good “Students” to choose from. Ha! Until then, I’m basically on bed rest due to how I feel and my fear of making OHSS worse. On a slightly different note, I watched a hilarious movie on Netflix last night called “Maybe Baby.” It is a British comedy that was made in 2000 about a couple going through infertility and IVF. I would definitely recommend it to all of us who are TTC!
        Any news from your insurance, etc?

  5. Isabel March 26, 2013 at 3:20 pm #

    Hi! I’m sorry about the painful experience. Hope you feel better soon.

    A lot of time this process makes us feel hopeless and without direction. Especially when you are on hold and you don’t know what the next steps are going to be. Also, dealing with insurance companies suck. Hope you receive good news soon. Take care!

    • bloggerkuwait March 27, 2013 at 6:02 pm #

      That’s very true. Thank you so much! Sending you good vibes your way as well ๐Ÿ™‚

  6. Fertility Doll March 26, 2013 at 9:50 pm #

    Let’s kick PCOS’ ass! All together now.. 1… 2… 3! KICK. I’m hoping that you’re one of the many women who conceive naturally post HSG. Sending you lots of luck.

    • bloggerkuwait March 27, 2013 at 6:03 pm #

      My problem is anovulation! It wouldn’t even do anything for me…but yes…we DO need to kick PCOS’s ass! I’m sick of this shit!

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