Cray cray thoughts

2 Apr

i just got all my medication in the mail…and let me tell you, I had to take a lot of deep breaths (aka still trying to breathe). There. Are. So. Many. Shots. Fml. How did you all do it? I’m a chicken when it comes to pain (clearly you all could tell from my hsg etc) and the shots hurt like hell. And now I have I don’t know…can’t even count. I was so overwhelmed with anxiety and fear everytime we had to take the one shot a day. I would panic about opening the bottles..the mixing and putting it all properly in the syringe. My anxiety took over me. I look at all this and I feel like I’m not really sure how I’m going to manage the timing of each medication and how much. Did any of you do IVF? How did you make the process easier on yourself with the amount of medication and shots? Any tips will help! Also…tomorrow I will be having my check up before starting treatment. I am in a bit of panic because I started spotting yesterday and still until today. I’m crampy and feel like I’m getting my period. I called SG frantically praying they won’t tell me something is off and this is all a bust. I got one more. Just one month. They told me that its breakthrough bleeding and hopefully everything will be fine and tomorrow we will do all the tests to double check. For some reason that didn’t ease my anxiety. I’m still panicky and so scared that this cycle will be canceled. Anyways…we will wait and see what happens tomorrow.

10 Responses to “Cray cray thoughts”

  1. lamentingthelentil April 2, 2013 at 8:46 pm #

    If the says everything’s fine, I’m sure everything’s fine (or, at least, I’m sure you should try to believe that because what else can you do!). I’m sorry about all the needles. Hopefully you’ll just sensitize to it and after a few days you’ll feel like a pro. Like it ain’t no thang. πŸ˜‰

    • bloggerkuwait April 5, 2013 at 10:51 pm #

      You’re right…everything was fine. Ain’t no thang but a chicken wing! Will do πŸ™‚

  2. onpinsandneedlesblog April 3, 2013 at 1:02 am #

    Hi. I had the same experience as you and same hsg pain too. I will say that it does get easier the more you do it. I used to sweat and panic everytime I mixed the drugs. I would even cry. But then it just got easier as I realized the pain was quick. I also used an ice pack afterwards.
    I promise it gets easier. And before you know it, it will be just part of your day. Take a deep breath…you can do it!!

    • bloggerkuwait April 5, 2013 at 10:50 pm #

      I think I will try the ice pack thing, I hope it will help πŸ™‚ thank you so much for your encouraging words…I’m taking a deep breath before starting!

  3. Kristin April 3, 2013 at 5:20 pm #

    The only injections I’ve done so far were Ovidrel to induce my ovulation. And those were pre-filled syringes that you used on your stomach. I only had to do that once before we took our break from trying. I wish I had advice for you, but when you compare the pain you are going through during the injection, compared to the pain of not trying, I think you’ll come through it like a champ. Sending you lots of good vibes and baby dust.

    • bloggerkuwait April 5, 2013 at 10:49 pm #

      You’re so right! I gotta just be strong about this and do it! Thank you so much!

  4. prettycuteovaries April 6, 2013 at 3:55 pm #

    When I started my daily follistim injections, I had a bit of anxiety, too. I wasn’t really worried about the pain…I’ve found I have a pretty high tolerance for pain, especially after everything I’ve been through. I laugh in the face of needles compared to some of the other painful things I’ve had to endure (contractions during my miscarriage, for example…and I’m just talking physical pain, not emotional as well).

    The first time I had to give myself a trigger shot, I chickened out and had one of the nurses I work with give it to me. Then I started Follistim and I knew I had to do it myself. I wasn’t afraid of it hurting, I just couldn’t physically stab myself in the stomach with a needle. My brain was telling my hand to do it, but my hand froze! I swear I stood there and stared at that needle for a good 15-20 minutes before I ever did it. And of course it didn’t hurt. The needles are so fine you barely feel a pinch. And now I’m on my 3rd cycle with Follistim and I could give myself a shot in the dark if I needed to. It gets SO easy, as crazy as that sounds. You can do this. Think about all you’ve overcome so far. This is the easy part. The waiting and hoping and disappointment is the hard part…save your worries for all that πŸ˜‰ (and hopefully there won’t be any disappointment this time around!)

    Good luck, girlie!!!

    • bloggerkuwait April 10, 2013 at 3:40 pm #

      Thank you so much! What’s scary Is the trigger shot…it’s suppose to be given in your muscle right? It’s true…it becomes easy breezy over time but still painful! πŸ™‚

      • prettycuteovaries April 12, 2013 at 2:44 am #

        Here’s the thing on the trigger… the directions will say to give it in the muscle. But my RE gave me specific instructions to do it subcue in the belly. So you may want to clarify that with your doc just to be sure. I know all docs are different but it cant hurt to ask πŸ™‚ Hang in there, you’re doing great! Someday we wont even remember what a pain in the ass all these shots were πŸ˜‰

      • bloggerkuwait April 12, 2013 at 6:16 pm #

        Oh that’s great if I can give it in my tummy! I will so ask, thank you for letting me know πŸ™‚ you’re right, I hope one day I will forget because you know what…fml they’re a nightmare. Thank you for your help:)

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