Positive

4 May

I would have loved to have made this post just a happy post. A post with nothing but rainbows and butterflies to describe my emotions….but unfortunately I feel a few rain clouds and lightening overcoming my happiness. I am pregnant. Those three words have not sunk in yet…mostly because I know that it can be stripped away from me any second. I feel like even just writing this will jinx it and I will miscarry right away. I know that rationally…there is no medical reason for me to believe that I would have a miscarriage, but I also have never been pregnant before. Isn’t it sad that we can never enjoy our happiness, we just constantly think about the what-ifs that other normal pregnant women don’t have to even think about. Anyways…I’m not going to sour note every single part of this pregnancy announcement…but I will take it as a grain of salt until I go on Monday to have my beta test. I hope this baby is safe and healthy…that’s all I’m praying for.

41 Responses to “Positive”

  1. lamentingthelentil May 4, 2013 at 11:33 pm #

    WHAT!!!!? Congratulations!!!!!!!!!! You are pregnant, friend!

    And now I’m going to scold you a little. This is the most sad sounding pregnancy announcement I’ve ever seen. Woman, you have a baby implanted in your uterus! Yes, things could go wrong. But you have no reason to believe that they will. Worry if you must (I tease here, because I’m sure I would be equally apprehensive), but try to enjoy this at least a little bit. You deserve it! This is what you’ve been waiting for!!!

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:13 pm #

      You’re right. I totally should enjoy it for what it is now. Thank you so much!! πŸ™‚ praying for the new cycle to be your lucky one πŸ™‚

  2. newtoivf May 4, 2013 at 11:34 pm #

    Well I’m going to say a big congratulations! Of course its natural to be scared, but try to enjoy the positive….a colleague of mine became pg through IVF & brought in her v early baby scans to show us all. My boss (not a tactful woman) told her she shouldnt really be getting so excited so early and sharing with everyone as it could go wrong. My friend’s response (who was no stranger to heartache this being her 6th round) was “if it all ends badly then I’ll have plenty of time to be sad and negative, for now I’m going to be happy.”…. so this is a very long winded way of me saying enjoy the positive whilst its there….easier said than done I know xx
    PS my friend’s little girl is soon to turn 1!

    • tazdream May 5, 2013 at 3:17 am #

      My boss did the same yest when i rang her! We are realistic, but, yeah, its nice enjoy the small steps! Stay strong!!!!

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:14 pm #

      That’s such an adorable answer! I like it! I will do my best to take it one day at a time. Thank you!! πŸ™‚

  3. SM May 5, 2013 at 12:03 am #

    Congrats!!!!! This is exciting, friend!

  4. hopingonhope May 5, 2013 at 1:29 am #

    Enjoy it hun. Yes the grey clouds are still there but the sun will come out. Have faith keep praying, inshallah things will perfect.

  5. Lauren May 5, 2013 at 1:35 am #

    Oh honey! This is amazing. I don’t have much else to say that even makes sense other than, “wow!” I guess I’ve been holding my breathe and this feels surreal. I’m sure it’s even more so for you. Love you!

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:16 pm #

      I’ve been holding my breath too! I can’t wait for this month to be your lucky one honey! How did your ultrasound go? I’m waiting for happy news soon! Love you!

      • Lauren May 8, 2013 at 1:55 am #

        Love you! How did your beta go? I have to admit I’m personally discouraged. Ultrasound gave me the go ahead and I started injections of lupron twice a day yesterday. However, it will still be another 5 weeks till transfer and 7 weeks until I know anything. I’m so thrilled for you! It hardly feels real. I’m so glad one of us has gotten good news!

      • bloggerkuwait May 8, 2013 at 3:27 pm #

        My beta went well! But I’m waiting for today’s results to see if they double or not. Crossing fingers. No, please don’t be discouraged. I can really understand why you would be, but it’s a 50/50 chance for a baby to stick…and you already passed the 50% that was not to your benefit! You have to be optimistic and in a good place for this baby to be happily attaching to their mommy. Have high hopes and faith…you kept telling me that too! And I’m just waiting for your baby to follow (hopefully if mine continues)! πŸ™‚

        I know the medications and transfer feel like forever. But I tested a week after transfer and got results, so maybe it will just be 6 weeks for you! Just eat well and try to be in a good place darling

  6. Kristin May 5, 2013 at 2:00 am #

    Being positive about it can only help. Hopefully when it starts to sink in that this is real you can let go of your fear. Congratulations. It happened. πŸ˜€

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:16 pm #

      Positive. Positive. Positive thoughts. May it happen for you too, friend πŸ™‚

      • Kristin May 8, 2013 at 9:37 am #

        Thanks so much. πŸ˜€

  7. iSpytheWorld29 May 5, 2013 at 2:32 am #

    This is beautiful news! Congratulations. For those who have been trying for a long time, I can definitely relate to how you are feeling, the fear that something might happen. However, stay strong and positive. Let this special time be your time. I hope this year brings many more blessings for everyone. Again, congratulations!!!!

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:17 pm #

      Thank you so much, and congratulations to you too! It is. But positive thoughts!

  8. tazdream May 5, 2013 at 3:20 am #

    My bfp came thru yesterday too!!! Un-fkn-believable hey!!!!! Last night i had small seeds of doubt as dr told me not to poas- wondering if i had done the right thing, could it have stopped overnight so when have blood test monday, thats its all failed….hang in there xo it will alllllll be good! We could have a matching pair each!!!! πŸ™‚

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:17 pm #

      Yes! The anxiety starts kicking in! I had the same exact thought as you! A big congratulations to you on your BFP! πŸ™‚

  9. Fertility Doll May 5, 2013 at 10:14 am #

    Kun Faya Kun. I wish I could I hug you right now. I’m so pleased for you that I have tears in my eyes, I’m going to pray for you soooooo much. Rest, recite Ayatul Kursi and then leave the rest to God. Fear blocks things. You don’t need fear right now. You need faith x

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:18 pm #

      You brought tears to my eyes! And btw, as soon as I read your comment I went right away and read the sura! Helped so much. Kun faya Kun. The biggest virtual hug for you ❀

  10. redbluebird May 5, 2013 at 1:00 pm #

    Oh, YAY!!! Congratulations!!! Believe me, I completely understand the fear of admitting to yourself (and others) that you’re pregnant, because it feels like it can all be taken away in one heartbreaking moment. But you have NO reason to believe this isn’t the beginning of your firstborn baby’s life. Embrace it and try to enjoy it. No matter what happens, you’ll never get these moments back again. Hopefully, with each day that passes you’ll feel less and less worry and more and more excitement. I’m so happy for you!!!

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:19 pm #

      You’re right. I hope so too! Thank you for your sweet and uplifting message πŸ™‚ xo

  11. katherinea12 May 5, 2013 at 1:16 pm #

    Congratulations!!!! I will keep you and the little one in my thoughts for a healthy, happy pregnancy.

  12. prettycuteovaries May 5, 2013 at 1:43 pm #

    Ahhhh! Congrats!!! This is AMAZING, friend! So so happy for you!

    If anyone understands your fear, its me. I have been nothing but terrified for the last 16 days since I found out (wow, I’m been pregnant for 2 weeks??!). You just have do like me…take it one day at a time. Because TODAY you are pregnant!!!!! πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:20 pm #

      I know! I’ve been keeping up with your blog to see what you’ve done to get rid of this anxiety! It’s so so difficult…but I hope one day when we feel like things are still pretty safe…that we can start enjoying this wonderful gift! Xo

  13. Eggs&Hope May 5, 2013 at 1:49 pm #

    Congratulations! So happy for you! I understand your apprehension but try to enjoy it! You’re having a baby! So nice to hear one of us in this blogging world is pregnant, gives me hope! πŸ™‚ x

  14. theunexpectedtrip May 5, 2013 at 3:34 pm #

    I hear your fear, and I totally get it (have been pregnant 5 times and had 5 mcs). These first few weeks are going to be very difficult, not knowing what will happen with each ultrasound, each test, and so on. Just know that whether this pregnancy works out or not, you are precious, you have support & love from so many no matter what, and you will have a family. But for now: warm hearty congrats.

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:22 pm #

      You’re so unbelievably sweet. Thank you so much for that message. I’m sorry for all the losses you have had to endure, and I pray that the next one is the one that sticks (true stories from some of the same ladies commenting on this). Keep your chin up πŸ™‚

  15. steph50 May 5, 2013 at 6:26 pm #

    Yay!!!! I’m so happy it worked!!! Congrats and try to enjoy, although I understand completely why you would be nervous! Xox

    • bloggerkuwait May 7, 2013 at 9:22 pm #

      Thank you! Yes, I feel like almost all of us do too! πŸ™‚ xoxo

  16. satoyafoster May 9, 2013 at 3:42 am #

    AHHHHHH OMG!!!! I’m SOOOOO excited for you!!!!!!!!! I’m praying for a healthy, safe, and enjoyable pregnancy for you!!!!!!! xoxoxoxoxo

  17. maternalstateofmind May 9, 2013 at 4:08 pm #

    Exactly the way im feeling right now. Great post. Your good with words! But look at you now, two betas down and well on your way!!! xoxo

  18. needbabydee May 12, 2013 at 7:12 am #

    OMGeeeee!!! Congratulations hun!!! I’m so happy for you. Don’t worry, the grey clouds will inevitably hover, but the rainbows and butterflies will soon prevail. You just need some time for the news to settle in!

    I’m so Happy for you sweety!!! You must post your progress!! Be Happy, Be Positive and Be Blessed. The universe is giving you an awesome experience, Enjoy it hun!!

    Much Love!!!

    • bloggerkuwait May 13, 2013 at 2:12 am #

      You’re so so sweet! Thank you so much Hun, it really means a lot πŸ™‚ taking it in and can’t wait to see the same announcement from you sometime soon πŸ™‚

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