Home Sweet Home

8 Jun

Hi everyone, I have been meaning to update for a while but I have been so absolutely jetlagged that I barely even function now. On the flight back to Kuwait, it was rather…interesting. The flight was almost booked, and there were a few rows that were empty except for one person sitting there, luckily I was one of them. When I checked in I told them that I would have to get up every two hours and just didn’t want to have to bother anyone sleeping next to me, so they gave me an empty row, how nice of them! I got also wheelchair service because in the transit you must walk up and down a long flight of stairs while carrying your carry on and I couldn’t do that, so that definitely helped. The crappy news? I was the ONLY row on the flight that the arm rests couldn’t go up. I know most people don’t get that luxury and I shouldn’t complain about it…but it’s like waving water at a thirty person. I was dying! I just wanted at least an hour of restful sleep…in between having to get up every two hours to walk, and getting so nauseas that I was going to throw up 7 times, it was a really difficult flight. I was starving, but couldn’t eat anything from how sick I felt! I kissed the ground when I arrived because it was simply put, too much for bambino and I. The next day, I had an appointment with the gynecologist that first diagnosed me with PCOS. I disappeared about 6 months ago from her once I realized that this diagnosis was much more serious than I had thought, and that her help couldn’t be used anymore, I needed an RE. She looked at me and said “wow, you look a lot better than last time”, well…no shit because last time I literally was losing every ounce of control and patience that I had, I felt like my dream of a family was slipping right in between my fingers. I’ve had nightmares from this hospital, from my initial diagnosis to my treatment that failed for almost 5 months with her, it was a debilitating time. It was so weird being back. And you might ask, what in your right mind would bring you to go back there? Simply put, it’s hard to find a good doctor, and she was good enough to diagnose me with something that sometimes takes years for doctors to pick up, and also, because my husbands insurance works with the hospital and also it is 2 min from my house. I sucked it up, and went. After my horrible flight, I expected bambino to have paid the price for my lack of sleep, lack of eating and my cursing of living daylight for about 15 hours. Let me tell you… This is the first time that I didn’t have to show my hoo ha! I was taking off my pants and the nurse goes…no not required. I’m like umm ok but I’m too early on to have a regular ultrasound? I listened anyways, and apparently I’m not. She picked up bambino right away, he obviously looked like a big blob on screen instead of clearer through a vaginal ultrasound which made me sad but I accepted it. The heart rate also went up…from 152 4 days before to 164! I’m so proud if bambino…so so proud! It was also my husbands first time meeting bambino…and as she was finding the heartbeat my husband stood mesmerized by the screen…his baby…with his/her heartbeat. He definitely melted, as did I.
Sleep. It’s all I want, and it’s all I cannot get. When I arrived, I slept at 12, woke up at 4am to pee and couldn’t go back to sleep until 8am! Which meant that I slept until 5pm. And my sleep has been off ever since then, and absolutely not one restful nights sleep until last night when I finally caved in and took unisom natural nights that includes B6, calcium, and 2.5 mg of melatonin. I have been hesitant to take it because I’m not sure if melatonin is safe, but I kept reading that under 5mg should be fine. I hope it is..because I took it again now so I can sleep..I hate not bring able to sleep!! Other than all of this…bambino and I are safely home with my husband. I can’t believe it’s been over a month since I’ve seen him and since he’s been able to be next to bambino…I’m really happy for my husband and I to finally be in Kuwait and feel at peace. This is the first time in over a year that I havnt hated being here, and I know that it all stems from my PCOS.

7 Responses to “Home Sweet Home”

  1. Lauren June 9, 2013 at 4:50 am #

    Oh I’m so glad to hear from you and hear that you and baby are safe. It is late here, so I won’t write much. But I have missed you! Four days away from my transfer…

    • bloggerkuwait June 10, 2013 at 12:10 pm #

      Oh my gosh!!! 2days from now…how are you feeling?!

  2. Fertility Doll June 9, 2013 at 9:49 am #

    Awwww I’m so pleased for you both and that you’re both at peace. Wishing you a super strong and healthy pregnancy x

  3. prettycuteovaries June 9, 2013 at 3:35 pm #

    So glad to hear from you and that you’re safe at home! I must say, this post seems overall more positive than your last ones. I hope you’re allowing yourself to enjoy this beautiful gift! Much love to you and bambino!

    • bloggerkuwait June 10, 2013 at 12:12 pm #

      Thank you Hun! Yes, it does feel that way right? Even though the anxiety hasn’t all gone away, I do feel a little bit better..and I just hope it continues that way 🙂 <3!!

  4. newtoivf June 9, 2013 at 8:44 pm #

    So glad everything is going well for you and you’re back with hubby

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