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Flying Back

16 Jan

So here’s my deal so far. I’m leaving tomorrow to head back to Kuwait and I’m a little nervous. I talked to my specialist about my lab results today and if she had found anyone in Kuwait yet that she could trust with getting my fertility treatments done there. So far she told me she hasn’t found any. There’s a new facility that just opened in Abu Dhabi, but we can’t go there and do treatment because ill have to be getting shots and be monitored for about 2 weeks she said. I’m scared that I won’t find a trustworthy doctor and that ill have to put off the treatment until we come back to visit again at the end of march. I’m just a little bummed about potentially putting off two more months as well as I’m not really sure what to do with my periodsless body at the moment if i don’t end up doing treatment. Is it healthy to stay two months without a period? Everything I read said no. Higher potential of endometrial cancer later on? Don’t know, and to be completely frank there is not a bit that I can stand about my body when I don’t get my period. I literally want to crawl out of my skin. Everything is off, everything hurts, and it just keeps reminding me that I’m not normal. The good thing is that all my test results came back normal except my AMH, it was 8.5 when it’s suppose to be between 3-5 at the most. This just further confirms my diagnosis she told me. What now? Not really sure, so much will be played by ear.
So I ended up talking to a close friend about what’s happening with me, about an hour into the conversation she tells me that she’s had similar symptoms to me and that “gut feeling” that something is of but she wasn’t really sure what it could be. My heart sank for her, because I feel like there’s a bigger chance that its PCOS than its not. I really hope it’s not.
Anyways, packing and getting ready to head back I’m so tired already. May the future be bright with lots of babies for everyone.

The rant.

10 Dec

Nothing blows more than fertility treatments. I was having a pretty tough two days with my emotions, better yet with anger control. I lost my temper on anyone and everyone. I should have been walking around with a sign saying “do not converse, angry woman doing fertility treatments”. I was a hazard to everyone around me. I’ve been feeling ok emotionally about doing the treatment because I have high hopes that this month will be good, not sure if that’s the best thing but I just can’t think about it not working because then I go into really deep depression. I’ve been pretty okay today till I went to get my third shot, and low and behold the nurse had no idea what she’s doing. Unlike the states where they take fertility treatments very seriously, here in Kuwait they don’t. No follow up, no blood work, just take the medicine and come back after ur done. I love my doctor she’s wonderful, dot get me wrong, but many times I wish I had more. It’s already nerve wrecking going through treatments, and then not havin anything to reassure you is hard. Anyways, back to the nurse. She put the liquid with the bottle of medicine for it to mix, an she SHOOK it, I was just horrified. I remember reading that you shouldn’t shake the bottle, and the stupid bitch shook it, does she not understand that I can’t have anyone mess with my treatment!!! That a month lost is like a century to me with the mourning of a baby we coudlve had. I was so mad. Now I stopped by my doctors office to tell her what happened and to see if my stomach pain was ok. I’ve had stomach pain an diarrhea since I woke up this morning, and I’m not sure if its a side effect. I’ve been really worried about overstimulation esp since they don’t really follow up here with treatment. Now I’m in the waiting room, with more pregnant women, and I feel depressed again. Hallelujah. Fuck my life. Ok I’m done with my angry rant now.

Sprinkles sprinkles

4 Dec

After a long month and a half of waiting to start my clomid+fostimon, the time has finally come. I got my period yesterday and already started my clomid today. I need all the baby prayers I can get because at this point it’s been too difficult. I’m not really sure what ill do if this fertility treatment doesn’t work. I’m crossing my fingers….

All my love to the women out there trying this month…may this one be your last 🙂